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4月28日

まさか

帰り道でバスに乗って、まさかに「ラスト・フレンド」の撮影現場を目撃した。
そのミチル(長沢まさみ)のバイト先は、まさかにNicheだった。
そのNicheで、まさかにパーマをかけた。
そのパーマをかけてくれた店長は、まさかにドラマに映ってた。
その新川駅で、まさかに筑紫(「花より男子」)もバスを待っていた。
そのいつも通りかかる浜田山は、まさかに「ハチミツとクローバー」の発祥地だった。
。。。。。。
 
今気づいた。私って、いろんなドラマの舞台に立っていた。
なのに、うちの人生にはドラマなんかなかった。
何か期待をもつべきかどうかわからないけど、先がまったく読めないことは確かなのだ。
ドラマって、胡散臭い偶然の連続なのに、それに目を引かずにはいられなかった。
それって、頭が単純すぎる証拠なのか、それとも偶然に飢えてしょうがない証拠なのか?
。。。。。。
 
何がいいたいのか、自分だってまったくわからなかった。
クラコンで調子に乗りすぎた。カクテル一杯で酔っちゃった。
アルコールに癒しを求めるヤツはもう終わってるってみんな言ってる。
アルコールにも癒されないヤツはそうとう終わってるってうちは信じてる。
まさか、自分は後者なのだ。
 
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4月27日

Patriotism

The first time I saw a demonstration was about 7 or 8 years ago, when Chinese Embassy in Yugoslavia was bombed by America.
At that time, I had definitely no idea that I would actually be in one.
 
I must confess that a real demonstration is totally different from what I've thought. I was just very glad that this demo was not like those I've heard of at home. Here every Chinese I saw acted very proudly and properly, no offensive words or rude behaviors. However, even our intention was only to appeal support to the BJ Olympics, which sounds very reasonable, I still think we cannot make everyone fall into the line. And in fact, when I read today's newspaper, I know my thought's right.
 
When the teacher of my seminar heard of my parcitipation, he called me patriot, which I couldn't judge a praise or an irony. Since there are so many so-called or self-considering patriots, I don't really think them so. Just like the DL, he was a gainer of Nobel Praise for peace, but few Chinese would consider him a peace-defender. Patriotism can never be seen so strong in other countries, especially in developped countries, cos those countries have little experience of being this humiliated by others. But is that all for patriotism? Just fight back after being bashed?
What about working harder for the country's development or behaving decently towards everyone including foreigners? Patriotism asks for more everyday actions and being reasonable. We can express our anger but should definitely not act like furious mob. Some commentator said China is like a 6-ton elephant and everyone wants to bash it. So we wouldn't be beaten down easily since we have this weight, but if we keep kicking back, we would be killed as life-threatener. 
 
During the marching, we confronted the supporters of ZD, who were mostly Japanese. I even didn't want to say anything to them, because any action would seem useless. People's preconception is so profound and firm that no talks or demonstrations like what we were doing are gonna change that. I saw many of the ZDs holding the boards, writing China and Korea should abandon anti-Japan education, let's be friends! on one side, and Free Tibet on the other. I just couldn't help wondering why these people are so naive. Being friends is one thing, but giving up integrity is sth unnegotiable. It's just like that an intimate friend would never persuade him/her to separate with the spouse or abandon the children, since anyone knows it's a no-win situation. Well, it seems like this theory only fits on individual person, not individual country, which is made up of individual persons, though.
 
I don't know how much the torch has been and will be tortured, but I do know this Olympics in China will be written in history books, memorable
probably not in a good way. This will be another significant symbol as politics' HUGE HUGE power in EVERY EVERY field.
 
Politics, what a genious invention by human beings! It ruined the Holly Olympics, the friendship between countries and my important Saturday.
Tomorrow, hope no one asks me anything about the relay. If somebody has the nerve to do so, I will politely ask the AH to keep away. 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
4月26日

。。。

Now I'm a firmer believer of this:
      A really good man is one who knows when to shut the F. up!
 
Sorry, it was a tough day.
 
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4月23日

Trilingual Day

三限
Keltz: How many children do you want to have?
Iori  : As many as possible.
Keltz: So you need to buy a big house.
大笑大笑大笑大笑大笑大笑
Mr.Keltz的思想很纯洁,起码比我纯洁
 
四限
金先生: 여름이지만, 추워요. 왜 추워요? 애인이 없으니까.
           (尽管是春天,但仍旧很冷。为什么冷呢?因为没有恋人)
破碎的心破碎的心破碎的心破碎的心破碎的心破碎的心
金先生的理论很偏激,而且哪壶不开提哪壶
 
五限
Pagés: C'est un théâtre en français.....
          En prendant congé, on s'embrasse en France! Donc vous vous embrassez!
          (这是法语的短剧。。。在法国人们告别时都要相互拥抱!所以你们也得拥抱)
困惑困惑困惑困惑困惑困惑 
Madame P.的要求很无理,没想到上法语会话课还得与陌生人进行身体接触
 
 
 
4月19日

成人礼

不知不觉,我20岁了
可我脑中的记忆大概还填不满一年的日记
 
17岁时参加了本应该18岁时才参加的“成人礼”,没有感觉
18岁时好不容易熬到了成人,结果来到日本,又被打回“未成年”的行列
从今天开始,无论做什么都不会有人向我索要家长的同意书了
 
一直以为成人是个门槛,跨过去了就会看见不同的世界
可实际上成人不过是条线,跨过去就是跨过去了,不会有什么改变
 
我老姐用献血纪念她的成人礼
我准备用无视纪念自己的成人礼
 
都说女子在20岁之后就不想再庆生了
我现在终于能体会到那种复杂的心境了
 
不是因为太多的蛋糕奶油会让自己发胖
也不一定是因为庆生代表承认自己的衰老
而是实际与心理年龄的差距之间那条无法逾越的鸿沟让人觉得无所适从
手里拿着报纸,心里却计划去看柯南剧场版,这就是20代与10代过渡区的彷徨
 
20代的人究竟应该考虑些什么?
社会又在20代的人身上期待些什么?
 
外头的人想进去里头的人想出来的围城又岂止是婚姻
成人何尝不是如此?
 
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4月18日

Rainy Days

这大概就是传说中的“淫雨”
我一直以为雨天躺在床上看书是件很惬意的事,然而事实证明雨天里唯一惬意的事就是躺在床上睡觉
一节必修课无情地剥夺了我享受这惬意的权利
 
新的法语老师是个年轻女人,长相和声音都很令人欣慰,但上课的方式实在是不敢恭维
 
本学期唯一的经济课,老师是中国人,先前在逆评定上读到他日语说得很烂,板书写得很糟,果不其然
很奇怪,有些人正直到喜欢在人前暴露自己的缺点,例如这位老师
明明字很丑,又错别字连篇(ex.入問書),却一直孜孜不倦地在黑板上写些废话
比如他在介绍一本价值3700日元的参考书时在黑板上这样写道:
       Q1:なぜ高いか?
    A1:分厚いから
    Q2:なぜ分厚いか?
    A2:詳しいから
    Q3:なぜ詳しいか?
    A3:どこが違うか?(答えになってねぇし。。。此为听讲者评论)
       。。。。。。
 
总之40分钟的guidance,有4分之3的时间都伴着“欢笑”度过
从这位大叔说日语时扭曲的脸上,我似乎能看见汉语一涌而出的冲动,可惜他一直用扭曲抑制着本能 
 
大多数出席者都觉得这课很癒し系,因为此大叔与其他令学生望洋兴叹的教授不同,他有一种让学生重拾自信的“人性美”
 
或许这位大叔就是所谓的真人不露相
为了探究他的deep之处,我决定下节课还要出席,但愿他别让我失望
 
          
4月13日

Fragile

有些东西实际上远没有我们想象得那么坚强
 
比如说我的雨伞,我不过把她扔在地上,结果她的一根骨头就向里折了。。。
比如说我的表链,我不过把她从手腕上拽下来,结果她就掉了。。。
比如说我的鞋跟,我不过崴了一下,结果她就断了。。。
 
到底是她们太娇气,还是我的破坏力太高级?!
 
 
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4月11日

THE abstruse question

How do you know the thing comes to you is what you have been waiting for?
 
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4月10日

(转)What do you want from us?

作者: 破例 R , Apr 10,2008,16:40
Reposted from
http://www.wforum.com/gbindex.html. Feel free to forward, but please give credit to where its due.

"What do you want from Us?"世界论坛网

- A Poem Dedicated to the last 150 years of this planet.
By a Slient, Silent Chinese. 世界论坛网

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When We were called Sick man of Asia, We were called The Peril.
When We are billed to be the next Superpower, We are called The threat.

When We were closed our doors, You smuggled Drugs to Open Markets.
When We Embrace Freed Trade, You blame us for Taking away your jobs.


When We were falling apart, You marched in your troops and wanted your "fair share".
When We were putting the broken peices together again, "Free Tibet" you screamed, "it was an invasion!"

( When Woodrow Wilson Couldn't give back Birth Place of Confucius back to Us,
But He did bought a ticket for the Famine Relief Ball for us.)

So, We Tried Communism, You hated us for being Communists
When We embrace Capitalism, You hate us for being Capitalist.

When We have a Billion People, you said we were destroying the planet.
When We are tried limited our numbers, you said It was human rights abuse.

When We were Poor, You think we are dogs.
When We Loan you cash, You blame us for your debts.

When We build our industries, You called us Polluters.
When we sell you goods, You blame us for global warming.

When We buy oil, You called that exploitation and Genocide.
When You fight for oil, You called that Liberation.

When We were lost in Chaos and rampage, You wanted Rules of Law for us.
When We uphold law and order against Violence, You called that Violating Human Rights.

When We were silent, You said you want us to have Free Speech.
When We were silent no more, You say we were Brainwashed-Xenophoics.

Why do you hate us so much? We asked.
"No," You Answered, "We don't hate You."

We don't Hate You either,
But Do you understand us?

"Of course We do," You said,
"We have AFP, CNN and BBCs..."

What do you really want from us?
Think Hard first, then Answer...

Because you only get so many chances,
Enough is Enough, Enough Hypocrisy for this one world.

We want One World, One Dream, And Peace On Earth.
- This Big Blue Earth is Big Enough for all of Us.

FootNote:
One,
never mind the racist thick fake accent,
I am sure this video Just want human Rights.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kdqa8_RB8Mg

Two,
If you don't know the above references,
Go to libraries and Do your own research.
don't get your facts from the tube,
You wouldn't have a Clue.

Three,
Any one is free to use this poem,
Copy Right Notice,
Just Give The Credit,
to the Silent, Silent Chinese.
4月9日

エネルギー源

我最敬佩的法语教授洋二郎当初因为女生大多学法语的谣言进了法语班,结果因为班里只有一个长得不尽如人意的女同胞而导致第一学期法语成绩为不可
我今天试听的古典希腊语教授当初因为在古典希腊语课上的同桌是美女而成绩异常优秀,因为在古典拉丁语课里唯一的美女早早就嫁为人妇而出席次数骤减
我今天跟班里的其他女生受人之托去毫不相干的体操部见学,其理由是居然是“部里的男生看到有女生在练习时才有干劲儿”。。。
 
我曾一度认为喜欢看イケメン的自己很肤浅
原来看上去很深刻的人也有过这样的情结
 
我坚信养眼才能养心,养心才能养身,养身才能养神
所以我坚持用善于发现美的眼睛,去寻找动力的源泉
 
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4月8日

。。。

I've never been a big fun of newspapers. The only section I can read completely is the entertainment. But now newspaper has somehow become one of the stuffs that make me feel really sick.

 

"The nature of its rule isn't visible on the streets of Shanghai, where people enjoy a degree of personal freedom as long as they keep their noses out of politics."

 

I won't deny the opinion above, since I think I was living in a world far away from politics. I did acknowledge that I had definitely no idea about our country's situation and other countries' opinions towards China until I was out of China. And now I feel exposed to politics unwillingly. There are that many elections, votes and also political criticisms on every country around the world. So people there think they can see the world more clearly than us, who are being fooled by an authoritarian dictatorship and its media.

 

However, I wonder whether it is true.

 

If we could be deceived by media, they also could be. Look at CNN and some other foreign media. They used modified pictures to blame Chinese government; they advertised Dalai Lama as a great mentor, who loved peace and therefore couldn't be the instigator of the recent riots. And what's more funny, there are people who believe in these words and even get to join the protestations. No wonder the teachers in the New Orient love making fun of foreigners' foolishness. Since they move only to their impulses which could be totally unwarranted and they just consider themselves justice! But even enfants can point out that Dalai Lama's allegation that it was the Chinese government that stirred up the riots, is absolutely non-sense. How can a host country of the Olympics do all of these to agitate other countries' hostility and spoil its own honor?!

 

So now I wonder, people joining the protestations or showing support to "Tibetans", are they really defenses of democracy, or just offenses of China and socialism?!

I just can't believe that people living in so-called developed countries are so short-sighted. 

 

爱的代价

高中时参加每周一次的“爱校劳动”,擦玻璃擦到变成灰姑娘
大学时参加迎接新生的集体照拍摄,在大雨中排队排到冻成雪女
 
高中时的“爱”是被逼无奈
大学时的“爱”是鬼迷心窍
4月6日

女生

女生不整理衣柜,就永远不知道自己已经买了多少衣服。。。
女生不打扫浴室,就永远不知道自己已经掉了多少头发。。。
 
女生整理过衣柜之后,开始思考为什么自己还要再买衣服。。。
女生打扫过浴室之后,开始思考为什么自己还没变成秃子。。。
 
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4月5日

オリ合宿

好久没觉得这么累过了,好久没喝过这么多酒了。
 
要不是班里的同学说下クラ的留学生还需要我“罩着”,管他是玉皇大帝还是耶稣基督也没办法把我这个“干物女”骗去オリ合宿。结果事实证明我的下クラ是一水儿的日本人,根本不需要我这个自己都罩不住的外来人口去罩他们。只是交出去的钱就像泼出去的水,想收却收不回来了。
 
多亏我们班众多“精英”的精心策划,这次出行也并非乏善可陈,只不过我万万没想到短短两天的オリ合宿竟然勾起了我内心深藏多年的恐惧。
 
恐怖そのⅠ:絶叫マシン
第一天就去了以絶叫マシン而闻名的富士Q游乐场。在两个班的老老少少男男女女沉迷于尖叫不能自拔的时候,我非常闲适地坐了3次观览车。间歇时还穿梭于各个machine之间,享受别人高分贝的尖叫和扭曲的脸。尤其是看到一向以tough形象示人的山田同学,在观览车里竟然怕到浑身发抖还一边紧紧地握住座椅边缘一边抱怨览车箱内没有扶手的样子时,心里有种难以名状的快感。不幸的是,我最后还是被逼上了mad mouse(子供向きジェットコースター),在一阵狂叫之后,我发誓这辈子与这种东西断交。而上一次我发这种毒誓是在小学时尝试了中山公园的“激流勇进”之后。。。
 
恐怖そのⅡ:お化け屋敷
一看到游乐场竟然排进了大学生的行程之后,我就应该想到这帮人也想不出什么高级的东西来了。只是我没想到晚上的飲み会上,作为压轴的event竟然是お化け屋敷。我和两个一年级的小男生一组,这两个人竟然以我是前辈为由,把我推到了队伍的最前面。日式的纸糊拉门后透出的微弱的光,押入れ里突然跳出的scream,厕所的门后伸出的一双红色的手。。。。。。于是在我的一阵鬼叫声中,我作为前辈的威严被一扫而光,但那些“演员”们却得到了预料之外的满足感。在一阵旁观者的狂笑声中,我发誓这辈子与这种东西绝缘。而上一次我发这种毒誓是在。。。可能是在襁褓中吧。。。
 
 
 
看着新入学的小朋友们,我才意识到自己已经是“前辈”了。长江后浪推前浪,但愿我不会死在沙滩上。
 
 
 
 
 
 
4月2日

Greetings to BigBang!第二弾

值得纪念的第二张mini album的第一主打
  《最后的问候》-----baby baby baby~♪
 
 
 
PS:一大早就从e-plus收到通知,让我等到望眼欲穿的sj终于要来开演唱会了!!!!
     희철이 오빠, 너무너무 보고 싶어요. 그때 꼭 만나러 가니까, 기다리세요红心
 
4月1日

De l'idéal et de la réalité

 On ne sent plus qu'on est vivant que parce qu'on sent qu'on est malade, et on ne sent aussi qu'on est amoureux que par sentir toutes les peines de l'amour.
                    《De l'amour et de la vie》
                          de La Rochefoucauld
 
就像这句话说得那样,人通过病痛感受生命的存在,通过心痛感受爱情的存在。
 
而这种关系似乎也存在于理想跟现实之中,只不过我分不清是理想提醒我现实,还是现实给予我理想。
 
我的l'idéal多数来自于la fiction,多数是架空的内容。因为我一直以为理想同艺术一样,理应源于生活而高于生活。
于是那些架空的理想就像肥皂泡,在膨胀到极限时,被现实的冷水泼得不复存在。
 
现实告诉我,高中没有流川枫和樱木花道,大学没有道明寺和花泽类;
现实告诉我,我没有办法像小樱的妈妈那样16岁就结婚,更没有办法遇到一个人,被从树上掉下来的我砸到,还温柔地对我说“我以为是天使落下来了呢”;
现实告诉我,我在小学校庆时画的那幅鸡妈妈拥抱归来的小蛋的画根本是痴人说梦;
现实告诉我,在各大晚会上经常被哼唱的“56个民族56枝花”的歌词纯粹是瞎编。。。。。。
 
所以,Voyons la réalité!
 
只不过,希望现实在泼我冷水之后,能体贴地递给我一盒感冒药。。。。。。